32nd Birthday

in the next few day, I will have my 32nd birthday. Yes, I will be 32, and I feel... well that's the most important thing right? How I feel.. how I comprehend all the reality, is reality real?

Feel not so exited... cause I feel the life would go on, with or withot me, life is just like the stream of a river, it will flows no matter what.

I feel... well I should feel gratitude.. the previous year has been an up and down year.. I had my master degree in information and communication technology from the best university in country, tremendous experience, eye opening scene of life. rational thinking, good theory, good methodology, good data, three sources of literature, 3C 2S (compare, contrast, critisize, summarize, and syntesize) would be the thing I never forgot for the entire life.

I had also this devastating moment, the kind of moment that can lead to trust issue with God. That's happen when you put so much believe on a prayer, I guess... God has right to say no after all.

So.. no, I don't want anything God, just up to you, do what you like, cause I'm no worthy at all.

Happy Birthday to me